Breast cancer awareness

This picture was one I had a pleasure drawing. I have a lot of family members and people I have come into contact with that have either, won the battle of breast  cancer, or unfortunately lost their life to it. I have a friend whose mom is working on winning the battle with breast cancer. She is a woman who is also like my own mother. She struggled for a min, but quickly making her way back to the woman she was before.

I wanted to draw this because I wanted to let her know that it doesn’t matter what you look like, or what you are going through, you are a beautiful just the way you are (I know that sounds cliché, but it’s true). To get a little personal, as a woman to have your breast, the one thing that truly can make you feel like a woman, taken away from you in order to live, is a struggle I hate watching my loved ones go through. It’s crazy when there are no other options but to remove what you have carried for many many years. Yes, you can get fake boobs, but I just imagine that it isn’t the same. It’s different for woman who weren’t blessed with voluptuous breast and wanting to get fake ones to help them feel sexier, more like a woman.

Writing about this makes me really sad because I know the struggle my friend is going through. Having to explain to her son why he can’t visit his grandma as much. Or when there is one person sick in their house, they have to postpone the visit to her mom, to prevent the risk of her getting sick.

Anyone who knows anyone going through tnis, or even if you are/have gone through this. Hang in there! You got this and can overcome this. And don’t worry about the hair loss or the lack of breast, because what really matters is that you are the same person inside and that alone is beautiful.

Amazed!

A few weeks ago I won an award at work for outstanding performance employee of the year. With that award I won some money. I was completely surprised and speechless. I didn’t know what to do with the money. I thought to myself, for once (lol), I could save it or put it towards some bills.

My boyfriend tried convincing me that I deserved to spend it on something I wanted. I thought about it for a week. Even talked to my family about what I should do. Never thought I’d ever received a bonus like this.

After carefully thinking, I decided to purchase a new tablet. Pretty much an upgrade as to what I had before. I had the Samsung galaxy note 10.1 and I upgraded it to the Samsung galaxy note pro 12. I did donate my old tablet to my niece as she wants to draw like me and many other artist that she has come across. This tablet is so cool, I’m so glad I bought it. It has the same drawing app but has upgraded its features on it that you couldn’t get unless you bought the new tablet.

This is what I was able to create with it. I drew the girl on the swing and colored her in. The only think I didn’t do was create the background. I got it off of google images. I blurted the background so there was depth to the photo. I had so much fun making this. Did it in less than 24 hours ( which is a record for me ) and am so amazed as to what I was able to accomplish. I hope everyone is having a great weekend.

So sorry!

It’s been a few weeks since I have written anything. I am so sorry for that. I have been working a lot and working on getting a promotion at work, I can hopefully cross that off my New Year’s resolution list. I have from time to time been working on a drawing of a character have in mind for a comic I’d like to write. I started out with this;

But then I thought about it, and that’s not the girl I pictured for the story I was creating. So I decided to draw this. (These are pictures of the process)

I love the direction it’s going in now, I feel like this girl otherwise known as Olivia, is exactly the character I was looking for. When drawing her I feel like she has a personality. I was going to stick with the original pencil drawing which is why I put some of the details into it and thought I can keep everything on paper, but I’ve come to the realization that I love digital art. I love the way it looks, I love the ways I can make the color flow, and that it can be easily edited if needed.

As soon as I am done drawing her I will create the background of her character and post it on here. For the followers who have stayed with me throughout my absence, I truly appreciate it. Don’t forget to follow me on Instagram or to check out my store.

hope all is well with everyone. Have a wonderful day!

Weekend fun

Hello lovelies – I hope your all having a wonderful weekend. I finally had a weekend with nothing to do. I relaxed and cleaned my house, and was able to complete a drawing.

This is a style I believe Is one I can make my own. I love the way I was able to make it look cartoony (I know it’s not a word lol) and realistic at the same time. For a moment I almost got stuck staring at her eyes. I am very happy with this piece. I feel she can be a character I could continue to draw 🙂 I’m going to call her Olivia. I love that name.

I got some good news too! Today I was checking out Instagram and found out that I had gotten 107 followers. I am so excited and grateful! I also got more followers on my Facebook page. It just goes to show me I have to keep going, and eventually I will get noticed. 🙂

I also don’t want it to go unnoticed that I have received more followers on this blog in a month then I thought I would. I too am grateful that you guys want to be a part of this journey with me.

I hope everyone has a wonderful start to their week 🙂 please feel free to comment and/or follow my Instagram

Drawing block

So I want to draw but I’m having a drawers block. Lol. I’m not sure if that’s even a thing but If not, I’m making it up.

I wanted to reach out to some of my followers. I wanted to see what you guys would like to see me draw? Any suggestions or request let me know :).

I was thinking of creating characters for a comic but I have to create a story line. This could take me a while. I hope everyone is having a wonderful day and start to their week.

If you haven’t started following me on Instagram you should. 🙂 I update my works in progress. Hoping to start posting videos of me working on my pieces soon.

Forever

I finally finished this drawing on Friday night. It took me a long time to do. I did the hair a different way then I have done any hair before. I wanted to make her look as real as possible. I would love for one day to look like this beautiful woman I put on paper.

I love the pinup style art. I have watched/followed a few photographers who specialize in pinup. I love the hairdos and the clothes back then. Something about that style was so sexy but covered up. At least a lot more than woman are today and over the past 20 years.

I think I have found the style I want to stick with as far as creating my own style. I want to add a different type of flare to it and will in due time. Another thing I have wanted to do for a long time was write a comic. But I can’t figure out the story line I want to have. I don’t want to do the typical super hero because I feel those cannot be created any other way then the ones already written. I was thinking of a girl with powers but not the kind that she would really use to save people. I don’t know lol. I have to sit down and write it out.

My next medium I am determined to try is water color. I need to go buy paints and paint brushes. Maybe some books that will teach me step by step. I hear water color is one of the hardest mediums. There is also these new pens that just came out called chameleons. Very cool looking pens.

Any who, the picture above will be added to my store and be applied to blankets, totes, cell phone cases, pillows etc.

I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend. 🙂

Frustrating

Hi guys! Sorry I missed a few days of posting. Had a busy weekend that just lead into today.

So today I wanted to tell you guys about a frustrating situation. I don’t if anyone has ever experienced this and maybe not with drawing but anything else that you might have creatively done.

I try not to draw when I’m upset because I just find myself not taking my time on things, that really should require patients. I don’t put enough “love” into the piece… Not the kind I would like to make it my own.

So on Friday night, after a long day at work, I came home to work on a piece I started the previous night. Someone (who I will not put on blast) called me and wanted to discuss a dramatic situation. I was asked for my opinion, so I stated it, but it wasn’t in this persons favor and they pretty much ended the call by hanging up. While I was talking to this person I was continuing to work on my artwork. When the call was released I just got stuck looking at what I had done.

I thought about taking pictures, but I just was so pissed that I drew a giant “X” across it and ripped it up. I was angry because I knew I should have stopped working on it once I was on the phone, but no I kept going. I was also angry because I had been in visioning this picture in my head for a few days and it just didn’t go the way I expected.

I did end up drawing something new though and fell in love with it right away.

Please check out my Instagram to see the finished product coming soon!

Hope everyone is have a wonderful start to the new year. Goodnight everyone.

Happy New year’s everyone!

I am going to keep this post short and simple. The picture above is a work in progress with another story behind it. (will post soon)

I just want to say thank you to all those who are currently following me. I started this blog about a month ago and I can’t believe that even 5 people are interested in reading what I have to say. It just goes to show me, that I should never to give up. If the person next to you doesn’t believe in you, someone out there does.

I am not one who likes to set goals for themselves because I feel that if you Want to do something good or bad, fun or boring, healthy and ambitious than you should just go for it.

With that being said I wanted to let you all in on what my continuous life goals are. I am hoping that some of them will come true this year.

* I want to continue to lose weight and become a healthier me.
* I want to have more customers visit and purchase items from my store .
* I want to grow as an artist and continue to try different mediums.
* I want to end the year of 2015 with at least 500 followers on my instagram (I want more of course but I feel 500 is more realistic)
* I want to buy a house by June this year.
* hope to be promoted at my work.

And last but Not least

* I want to buy a better tablet to do digital art.

I hope you all had a wonderful and safe new years! Thank you again for all of your support. I looked forward to reading all your guys blogs and making many more friends.

Anxiety

Tonight the picture I posted is one that I am currently working on. The movie this character is from was one that took me a minuet to watch. “Little Groot” made me so happy at the end of the movie. The reason I have titled this post “Anxiety,” is because that’s exactly what happened when I went to see the movie, “The guardian of the galaxies.”

It was the 2nd week it was out. My boyfriend really wanted to go watch it. I was all up for it. Now to step back for a second, if you have never experienced anxiety you may not understand this post. As we were driving to the theatre I started to slightly panic. We were going during a time where it was more crowded then normal. I do not like to be in places where there is a lot of people. Probably why I hate shopping lol. Any way, I tried to talk myself out of it because my boyfriend has never witnessed me going through a panic attack.

I always used him as a safe haven. Felt like because he has never seen me go through one, to save myself the embarrassment, I won’t have one.

We started walking towards the theater. Bought the tickets previously through fandango. There was no turning back. We get our snacks and proceeded to locate our seats. We sit down. Everything is fine. I start to feel the attack coming. My hands getting sweaty. I excuse myself during the previews to go to the restroom. As I’m washing my hands I start to panic because I realized I didn’t bring my phone with me. “What if something happens?” “How will I reach him?” All these thoughts just started going thru my mind. I panicked. Couldn’t breath. Thought I could run to him but I became dizzy. Finally I saw this woman who was welcoming And I asked for her help. Once I had seen her and requested her help, I felt the anxiety go away. She walked me to my boyfriend. I thanked her and sat down. At this time I was shaking and told my boyfriend I wasn’t feeling good.

I actually ended up admitting that I was having an anxiety attack. He asked me if we wanted to leave before the movie started, but I declined because I wanted to try to overcome this obstacle. After 5 mins of the movie starting. I asked to leave. We drove home and I struggled to explain what I was going thru.

After all that, my boyfriend poked fun at me for a while every time that movie came up. I told him he could go see it with out me because I needed to try to figure out what my issues were. For Christmas my aunt bought the movie for him. We FINALLY watched it. And I loved it!

For those who experience anxiety, I’m sorry you have to go thru that. Hopefully we will find the light at the end of the tunnel. Goodnight everyone

Many lights!

So my sister in law was kind enough to take this picture so I could post it on my site. This is only a quarter of what the farm looks like. Looking at this picture is only a portion of the walkway/driveway. I wish I could get more pictures but this will do for now. Sorry I have been MIA for a while. This holiday has me running around to other homes to say hi. I’ll be back tomorrow. Have a drawing and story to share 🙂